Friday, April 9, 2010

Turning over Transitions

Transitions are difficult times. The discomfort of being in the midst of change can really bring about inner tension that can appear on the outside in many forms. It can show itself as energy, sadness, anger, anxiety, fatigue, hyperactivity, numbness, and always combinations of them. I'm sure there are so many other ways- as many as there are people.

My life is in transition. What's changing? Once again, I am faced with deciding what I want to do when I grow up. Again. I am a bit tired of this process, but I also realized that people do this multiple times in their life. They can ignore it and not change or they can run with it. It can be large change or small change, it can be personal or professional, external or internal, or a combination.

My change needs, this time around, feel like they are "all of the above." I want to change my work, change my physical person, change my physical environment, on top of developing my social environment. It's a long list! A bit overwhelming, actually.

Where to begin...where to begin?

I know- I will begin by turning it over. It's mostly out of my hands anyway. I will do the footwork for sure, but the universe (God?) will respond as it will. I firmly believe this to be true.

When I remember to stop fretting and turn something over, things begin to happen. Recently, I realized I needed more social connection with women in my life here in a new town. I turned it over. (Actually, what else could I do, knock on doors?) Within days I began connecting with women in calm, easy-going situations. It wasn't "instant best friend" stuff of course, but it sure felt good to be recognized at stores, receiving invites to dinner and introduced to friends of friends for good conversation. I just needed to be out in public (this helps!) and open to new things.

Today, I'll start with a long walk and get some exercise and clear my mind. Then I'll tackle my physical space while considering my professional work. At least, I can do that today.

For the rest, I'm turning it over and will see what happens.